To the person I loved at 16, You told me many years ago that I was special. That I was different. That you loved me because of how much I cared for other people. Then you let me go. The only person who I ever thought cared about me left. And it broke me. Really […]
When Death Helps You to Appreciate Life
Earlier this year, my Grandma passed away. I was not aware she was dying. My cousin told me and I rushed over to my Auntie’s house to see her one last time. I held her hand, I told her I loved her, I told her how sorry I was, I cried as I felt utter […]
It Does Get Easier. Please Don’t Give Up.
It’s been nine months since my last post and yet again, I’ve struggled to keep on top of my blogging. But I’m writing today because the past nine months has been a whirlwind of emotions. In my last post, I wrote about my endless struggles about finding a job and how my first job interview […]
Being Loved for Who You Are
Last month, I had an experience filled with highs and lows. But in my mind, I really struggled to remember the highs. It’s interesting how, we, as human beings, can often struggle to see the good. Even when there is so much of it. In my last entry, I basically alluded to writing more often […]
Life, Love and Laughter
Something pretty amazing happening today. Nothing particularly eventful but pretty amazing for me. Today, I laughed the hardest that I have laughed in the past few weeks. My facial cheeks hurt. My stomach felt pained. I was laughing uncontrollably. So why did my fits of laughter mean so much to me? Because just under a fortnight ago, […]
Can a Person Ever Really Change?
There’s been a recurring theme in my life as of late. It’s been the idea of change. Changing beliefs, attitudes, values, perspectives. In my own personal and professional life, circumstances have led to me to ask – is it worth being around people who are no longer conducive to your own happiness? Should you stick around until […]
I’m Finally Crying Tears of Joy
Three days ago, I made a very important decision. One that I’d been seriously contemplating for weeks now. I made the very significant decision to end my counselling. I no longer felt that I needed it. My counsellor agreed. We both knew that I was ready. The smile on my face right now reminds me that […]
Being Proud of Your Progress
I promised I would be back to blogging regularly and here I am! 🙂 It’s been 20 days since my last blog post, though. It may not be the previous two posts per week, but I’m focusing on slowly getting back onto my feet 🙂 To say that the past year has been a difficult year would be […]
A New Chapter Begins
Once again, it’s been another 4 months since my last blog. But this time, something in me has completely shifted. I know now that I am back to writing for good! When I wrote my last blog post, I’d only publicly disclosed my child abuse very recently. The memories, the trauma, the heartbreak, the shame, the […]
There is Always Hope. Always.
It’s been an emotional 4 months since my last blog post. I have cried many tears. I have felt sad, angry, resentful, overwhelmed, stressed, anxious, fearful, a mixture of emotions. At times, when I was feeling at my absolute worst, I even struggled to see whether life was worth living any more. But today, as I write, […]